14 weeks and counting...

At this point, every day is a milestone for me. 14. FOURTEEN! That's just...such a blessing. The 'lil one has been cooking inside me for over 3 months now! Hard to believe. I know how blessed we are so I take each day as a milestone and blessing.

So here's a recap of the last few weeks...I've been so lazy about blogging so this is a good way for me to fill you in :)

* I did indeed change my mind and did the u/s at 14 weeks (this past Monday).
* I did not expect the u/s tech to know the gender. Figured that'll be done next month. Well, lo and behold...drumroll...she said she was 90% sure it's a boy. She pointed out what she thinks is the wee wee.
* The Hubs could hardly contain himself. Believe me, I'm elated! But I was kindda hoping for a girl because I just do not know how boys are. I come from a familly of all girls. What do boys do? I only know barbies and tutu's, pink and purple. And I know this sounds ridiculous, but I'm scared when my son hits puberty, he'll start rebelling, intimidating me and scare his own mom to death. I know it's all about how I raise him but puberty is not something we can detour away from.
* I've gained 10 lbs already. I've ready normal is 5 lbs after 1st trimester. I do not want to be a fat preggo and the Hubs slaps me around (not literally!) whenever I start whining about this. What it took for us to get here, I'll gain 75 lbs if I have to.
* M/S is completely gone
* I bought a home doppler. It has saved me from some gray hairs and wrinkles. Definitely a stress reliever! But I've been good about using it only 2~3 times a week.
* I keep wondering if I should be showing more. My belly seems to be growing VERY slowly but there are moments where I am shocked and wonder - WOW when did it get this big? But I still wonder if it should be bigger for 14~15 weeks?
* I haven't made the "official" announcement to friends and coworkers yet. I think relatives all know now through our not-so-discrete parents and siblings. My manager keeps pressuring me to tell everyone at work. I just want to punch her sometimes.
* I had to bail out on a Bachelorette Party for my BFF which is next weekend in Santa Barbara. She didn't take it very well. Which really hurt me. I feel terrible for not going...but I really thought she'd understand whole heartedly. I'm still so cautious about this pregnancy to the point where I can't even really tell my whole world about it yet, let alone go on wine tasting tours and bar hopping for a Bachelorette party. It just seems...not right and I'm worried something will happen 180 miles away from home. I'm a terrible friend but I'd rather be a terrible friend than a terrible mom.
*We've decided I will return to work after our baby's here. It was a hard decision but the smarter decision looking at our long term goal. This will help us save enough to purchase our first house in 2~3 years. We're sacraficing our 1st born for our future growing family. It looks like we'll have to put him in an infant daycare. I dread that day already.
* I'm not constipated which I expected during pregnancy. Not that I'm complaining but when I don't experience what is the "norm", I begin to worry. I need to stop this bad habit.
* I passed on doing the NT scan. We will only be doing the blood screenings. I didn't want to add 1 more thing to my worry bag. Besides, regardless of the result, it doesn't change the end. We would've had this baby no matter what so why put ourselves through that.
* I'm already counting down the days until my maternity leave.

Have a great weekend everyone!!!

what's going on in there buddy?

That's a question I ask everyday. One day, people who are much smarter than me will invent technology where pregnant moms can peek inside her womb at home and see the lil one is just chillin' doing fine.

I have been a terrible blogger and haven't updated in weeks, but I have been reading the ladies I follow. Just so we stay even on being nosey (cuz God knows I am!), here's what's been hapenning to me, I mean us, so far:

- 1st trimester officially ended yesterday
- doesn't make me feel completely out of the woods yet and I'm still worrying, freaking out, etc.
- we haven't made the announcement to friends yet. however the hubs couldn't contain and has told a few of his closest friends.
- my last dr appt was 4/1 and heard the baby's hb with a doppler. i have been freaking out since wondering if i should buy a doppler myself because I just don't know what's going on in there!
- i have started showing. when i'm naked or wearing something tight. none of which i do in public so no one outside of my house would know just by looking at me.
- i have gained 7 lbs already. i could do a whole entry on this subject alone. i feel fatter by the minute and starting to worry a little. so maybe people DO notice I'm pregnant when I'm out in public. i'm eating pizza as I write this btw.
- should i buy a doppler?
- dr. gave me the option of doing the next u/s 14 weeks or 18 weeks. i chose the latter. i don't know what the hell i was thinking...i want to change this w/the dr tomorrow.
- my 1st trimester screening blood test was done 4/1 and i have yet to get a call with the results. does it take this long? freak out reason #89.
- i co-hosted a bridal shower yesterday and lifted a few heavy things. crap!
- i'm not as nauseated these days. only when i'm really hungry. i'm not complaining but this gives me another reason to worry. nausea = good sign.
- i have been driving with an expired license for a month now.
- the lakers need to get their s*** together!
- and why the hell are people so forgiving of tiger?

So that's what's been going on with me. I just wish I could see what's going on inside me!